Inspiration Continued

Continuing with my inspiration thoughts and after about 40 minutes of just sitting here weeping, I've decided I need to be pro-active. I need to seek out inspiration and I need to maintain focus. Here is my inspiration for the day - maybe it doesn't make sense to you, but it makes sense to me:

"There is something more than music here, and only one in a million bands can get to this place."
-Donald Miller

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists...it is real...it is possible...it's yours."
-Ayn Rand
Atlas Shrugged


(Yes, it is still an inspiration)

“It is always the simple things that change our lives. And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen. Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things.”
-Donald Miller

Myspace

If you have myspace, check out the song on my page. It is the inspiration for that last post. It's one of the girls we met in Sonora, California while on tour. I find it almost embarrassing how much those people in California touched my life. Things haven't been the same for me since that weekend and I find myself wishing I was back there and that they could all be my best friends.

Inspiration

Who inspires you?

There are some people who just absolutely inspire me with their lives and their attitudes. There are people who I look at and I am just blown away by everything from awe and inspiration to embarrassment of myself for not being more like that. I so desperately want to be more. I want people to look at me and talk to me and be able to count on what I am going to say and how I am going to react - in all situations. I have been overwhelmed lately with feeling lost, trapped, lonely and unimportant. It has nothing to do with the people or things around me. It has everything to do with me. I have lost it, I have dropped the ball, I have lost my focus. I have gotten so caught up with anger, blame, guilt and regret that I have completely forgotten...forgotten everything.

This is not the person I want to be. And I don't think it is who Lewis wants to be either. As crazy as this sounds, I so badly want to risk. When we were on tour last summer, some specific situations with specific people were bad and if focus had been in sync and attitudes had been different, Lewis and I both believe that we would still be on tour. As crazy as life was and as unstable as it felt, I look back on those few months and the year or so leading up to it, and I want to feel that lost again. Because as lost as I felt, I was at home in a way I haven't been in a long time.
I think home is people. I think home is the family that you make for yourself. And I am not satisfied being "normal." I want to be extraordinary. And I'm not...in any way. I need to get back to at least trying to be that. But I can't do that alone and what is so awful is that I don't know who to turn to anymore to help me get back there. Everyone broke apart. Everything fell apart.

Where do we go from here? Where is up? Where is out? I can feel the exit, I just can't see it.

Be kind.

I firmly believe that one 608 service changed the course of the rest of my life.

Please don't hold me in the past - don't hold me TO the past - and please don't allow me to hold myself there. My mind is filled with regret and guilt that I haven't let go of yet and it holds me back from everything.

I want to go home.

OMG OMG OMG

Did any of you watch One Tree Hill from Wednesday???

Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHH

I don't even know what to say!

Quote for the Day 5-31-2007

"People love a guy who rises from the ashes. Remember that."
-One Tree Hill

Flixster!!

So if you know me well at all, you know that me & movies are just best friends. I found this site - Flixster - I know, I know, if you already knew about it, I'm evidently WAY behind! But I kinda think it rocks and I want more of my friends to be on it!! You rate movies and you find out about new movies and it's just fun!! It can also link to your facebook so people can see what movies you like!!

Check it out!!

T95T

Hey look!! Lew's band is playing a show!! You should come!!

The Wizarding World of Harry Potter

Okay, my excitement is just intense. You have no idea.

Universal Orlando has secured the rights to the Harry Potter stories and are creating The Wizarding World of Harry Potter in the Islands of Adventure section of Universal Orlando. The Harry Potter island will feature the village of Hogsmeade, the Forbidden Forest and even the Hogwarts Castle!! It is set to open in 2009.

Check out this site and this site for more information!!

(P.S. To my friends who go to haunted house stuff with me & Lew every year - this is where the BIG haunted house stuff is that we've been talking about for the last 2 years!! The Islands of Adventure is where they have that, so maybe there will be some haunted Harry Potter stuff!! haha!)

PostSecrets 5-27-2007

I didn't get to post these on Sunday because of the no internet thing. These are my favorites this week.

I would actually be so excited if I found one of these.

Me, too. But I'm learning that isn't true.

It's definitely been one heck of a year.

PostSecret

I'm Moved!!!

We moved into our NEW HOUSE this past weekend!! We are officially homeowners who LIVE in their home! haha! I love it!!

But our cable and internet don't get hooked up until Thursday, so there will be limited posting until then!!

Yay!!!

Subsidized Story Time 5-29-2007

One old one, one new one

I have mentioned before that we work in a building that has condominiums in the upper floors and we are on the first floor. Elite Pest Control comes to spray for bugs every few weeks. They enter all the units and spray. Well, this woman from upstairs, who has already complained about every resident around her as well as every other possible building maintenance issue you could think of, she comes downstairs and tells Lewis that the Pest Control lady came into her apartment and dropped a huge poop in her toilet and stopped it up and then tried to clean it up by putting a towel around the bottom of the toilet. She knows all this because she comes in and the towel is around the stopped up toilet.

Who knows if that is true, but secretly...I hope it is!

Today, we just got a call from a foreign woman.

Woman Caller: "I am interesting in job at Sarah Apartments."
[In my head]: "Ah, yes, I am interesting in my job as well."

Maybe that's not funny to you, but I almost peed my pants.

Quote for the Day 5-25-2007

Image Source

"Until the day when God shall deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is summed up in these two words, --"Wait and hope."
-Alexandre Dumas
The Count of Monte Cristo

Song for the Day 5-25-2007

Wedding Time!!!!

My friends Kristen & David are getting married on Saturday!!
I am so excited for them!!
She is going to be the most beautiful bride!!!

Citizens Police Academy

I'm going to do the Citizen's Police Academy!! You should do it with me!!

It starts on June 12 and it is every Tuesday at 6:30 for 10 weeks.

They teach you what the police officers do and teach you how to do a lot of it. You get to drive a police car and you get tours of the prisons and you get to go on a ride-along at the end of it! Once you graduate, you know all the police officers in Lexington and they treat you like one of their own. They give you their personal phone numbers and stuff so you can call them if you are ever in trouble!! Also, you're always invited to any police functions, like cookouts and stuff!!

The topics are:
* Criminal Lawshooter
* Recruitment/Training
* Patrol Procedures
* Narcotics/VICE Investigations
* K-9/Bike Patrol/Mounted Patrol
* Emergency Response
* Communications
* Internal Affairs
* Media/Public Relations
* Accident Reconstruction
* Criminal Investigations
* Crime Scene Processing
* Family Abuse/Juvenile Procedures
* Community Services
* Crime Stoppers
* Defensive Tactics
* Firearms Automated Training System
* Tactical Traffic Stops

You don't just sit there and they lecture to you about everything, you actually do simulations and you do activities and you go watch like the SWAT team do stuff and stuff like that. It's not just like sitting in a class.

My friend Julie just did it and she LOVED it! I'm doing it!!

If you want to do it with me, this is the link for the application! You have to turn it in ASAP!!

OH, it's totally FREE!!!!!!!!!!!

Jordin Sparks - American Idol!

I love her! I'm so happy she won!! This is my favorite song that she did:

Quote for the Day 5-24-2007

Image Source

"Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise. Like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. A belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore, simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest civil world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality. Only an announcement to the world of feelings long held. Promises made long ago. In the sacred spaces of our hearts."
-One Tree Hill
-written by Dante Alighieri

Song for the Day 5-24-2007

In honor of the Lost finale - this was in Season 1

Urban Cowboy

Image Source

I can't believe I had never seen this movie!

I liked it!!

I wish Lewis was a cowboy!!

Okay, that's a lie, but the movie was good!

Lost Finale - I'm ready

Image Source

Okay...so...I wasn't blown away. I really liked it. I will definitely keep watching it. And the part at the end was cool, but almost a let-down because you know they're going to get off the island and not end up being happy about it.

I dunno, I wasn't just amazed with it or anything.

But it was good.

LOST FINALE

Do not say ANYTHING to me about the Lost finale yet!!! I didn't get to watch it tonight and I am watching it tomorrow night!

Don't say a word!!!

We will talk about it on Friday!!!

My friends, the artists

There are many different kinds of artists. Some of my friends are just such artists. I've always wondered why they seemed to struggle through so many things. This quote was on my google homepage today. Maybe it explains it.

"An artist is always alone - if he is an artist. No, what the artist needs is loneliness."
-Henry Miller
(American Novelist)

This reminds me of Lewis & Ian.

9 Crimes

This is one of my favorite songs right now. It's in Shrek the Third!!!

If you blog and you love music...

Look what I found!!!

My friend Katie introduced me to imeem! You can make a playlist and look up songs and load them on your blog!!

LOVE it!!

Gross, Wow, Weird, Ick!

Image Source

OMG, I just saw the most disturbing thing!

I can't even talk about it!

It had to do with boobs.

And not in a good way!

Aw I love people!!

My friend Josh (see picture) just posted a bulletin on Myspace about me & Hannah! And I love it! So you should read it!

thank you for the following:

1. convincing me via puppy chow
to purchase the buffy seasons.

2. proudly sporting buffy tattoos.

you guys are friggin awesome!

You, too are friggin awesome, Josh!

Bones Finale

Image Source

So 2 of them didn't get married.
I want the other 2 to get married.
Or at least kiss.
I don't want him to go to Iraq.

Overall, it rocked.

Desperate Housewives Finale

Image Source

I can't really talk about it yet because Hannah isn't caught up.

But wow.

American Idol Finale

Image Source

I voted for Jordin
...
like 20 times!

Who did you vote for?

Oh no Sly, Oh no...

Image Source

New Rambo movie. Wow. (And not in a good way.)

Across the Universe

I really want to see this!! Even though it has Evan Rachel Wood in it and I don't really like her anymore.

Grey's Finale?

Image Source

What did we all think of the Grey's season finale?? I have mixed feelings.

Check here to get Shonda Rhimes' (the creator of Grey's Anatomy) feelings about the finale.

Top 10 Futuristic Luxury Hotels

Check out this site for the top 10 Futuristic Luxury Hotels! They include underwater hotels, a hotel on the MOON, and a hotel in the air! Some are just prototypes, some are already under construction. One - a space station hotel - will be accessible in 2015!! This is just crazy!!!

The New Julian Beever

If you liked Julian Beever, check out Eduardor Relero!!

PostSecret 5-20-2007

I loved the PostSecrets this week. Let's be positive!!

TATTOO!!!!!

I have a new one!!!

Yay!!!!

Is This Life?

I've found a place where you are free to be yourself, however beautiful or cowardly or devastating or inspiring that may be. I've found a place where everyone is accepted at face value, no apologies, no regrets. I've found a place where there is beauty in everyone, whether the world sees it or not.

I've found a place.

The world sees it as something different, but I know what it is. This is heaven on earth. This is a piece of what eternity will be like. And I get to experience it whenever I want.

Ask me where it is, but I won't tell you because you need to find your own.

Open your eyes.

Tomorrow

Me & Hannah are doing something.

You'll see.

Oh Perez...

Perez Hilton has all the juicy gossip today!!!

Image Source

So over!

Image Source

Engaged!!

OMG this is nuts!

Harry Potter - 8th Book!!

Image Source

J.K. Rowling has announced her interest in writing an 8th Harry Potter book for charity!!
It would be more of an encyclopedia of sorts, but still...YAY!!!

Check here, here and here for more info!

I'm so behind!!

I went to Blockbuster today for the first time in ages!! And I have a new list of movies that I have to watch!! I need to catch up!! Here's my list (definitely in no particular order):

Music & Lyrics
The Painted Veil
Happy Feet
Night at the Museum
Dreamgirls
Happily N'Ever After
Little Children
Pan's Labyrinth
The Fountain
The Last King of Scotland

Hallmark

I found a bunch of my old cards from people in high school. I used to have them taped to my mirror to remind myself of the people that care about me. I found one card in there that I had bought to give to someone else, but I have never given it to them. This is what it says:

the craziness in
life can sometimes
distract us from
what is
important.
every once in a
while we should
take the time
to tell
the people we
care about
how we feel

you mean the
world to me

And I don't have a picture of Allison. But she should be on here.

Blockbuster!! 5-15-2007

Some of these are amazing, some...not so much.